What's happening

Alright, i know i've been away for a very long time. (I wonder who is going to read this besides me.)
I've been super busy, or maybe, i'm addicted to another app now - Instagram.

Now, I'm a third year med student. In the past two months, I had to go to hospital everyday to learn history taking and physical examination. Studying and learning are more interesting this way. I actually enjoyed this, although life is hectic and depressing because of the workload and seeing some terminally ill patients.

Public health module now is killing me with all those extremely boring lectures. Honestly, listening to the lecturers' teaching were like listening to lullaby. I don't understand why can't they find some interesting way to deliver lecture, especially when the lecture contents are so dry! While sitting in the lecture hall, what i can do to prevent myself from falling asleep is reading novels. Since i'm going to participate in a academic competition in two months, i  might as well study other subjects during lecture.
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I've always love drawing. Even though i'm super busy now, drawing is my way of releasing (it should be sleeping or exercising but i'm weird i know). Instagram is now like my little art gallery. I've no idea how people find me and follow, but i enjoy knowing someone loves my creations.

Next year this time, i'll have my elective posting in Austria and Belgium. I'm so looking forward to it!

给自己

很久没更新了，生活不是说我要做什么都可以随心所欲。
我没诉苦不代表生活得开心。
只是不想把不开心的事纪录下来，
不想让负面情绪把自己变得更不快乐，也不想让别人替我担忧。

生活充斥着各种不公平，欺骗，黑暗，政治。

这两年经历了好几次的低潮时期，害得自己怀疑自己是不是患忧郁症了。
没有人知道，只有我懂。
尤其是今年年头公公逝世的时候，心情好久才恢复平静。

可是就算生活有多么不如意，每一天都要努力让自己开心充实的过。

你不知道自己可以多活几天，那为什么要浪费今天呢？

很多事来得很突然。生命真的变化无常。
你不知道明天会发生什么事。
我的老师，第一次上课的时候精神焕发，
第二天他的妻子进院得了H1N1，他听后心脏病爆发然后昏迷。过几天就逝世了。
这就好像电影情节那样令人难以致信。
谁会料到好端端的一个人会这样？

去了趟医院后才领悟到，你活着的今天，是癌症和末期病人眼中的奢侈品。
他们要多一天，要健康无疼痛的身体。
问自己，你有吗？你有，那你还埋怨什么？

不要失去了才学会珍惜。今天能活着是一份礼物。
活着就是要开心。
我的目标是努力地营造开心生活。

乐游槟城2013

          

         盼了许久的假期终于来临了。好难得的机会可以尽情地吃喝玩！一考完试，我和朋友们就马上出发到槟城。别以为槟城只是美食天堂，它的好多旅游景点都很吸引人呢。第一天，我们去Fort Cornwallis 和 St George Church 哪儿参观。我们去到那时已是黄昏，所以没待多久。只是走走看看罢了。走回去取车的路程中，正巧碰上很多花车准备游行。原来是盂兰盛会。晚上花车的灯光亮着，对比着渐黑的天空，格外美丽。

不知道为什么，茶餐室高朋满桌，于是我们打包了晚餐才回房间开餐。走得累了，能吃上香香的Char Kuey Teow、 蚝煎、煎饼⋯⋯ 有幸福的感觉。

第二天，我们去Penang Youth Park玩。那里是公共的游乐场，大人小孩都可以玩。像我们这样的大小孩就像到了天堂一样，放肆地玩个够。这里的Graffiti Park 展览着很多壁画作品。而我最喜欢的是这幅瀑布的立体画，走了好久才找到它。找到了当然抓紧机会装模做样。;)

天气炎热，我们‘不得以’才想要找地方吃煎堆冰。听说Jalan Keng Kwee那有好吃的，我们就出发去。果然是名不虚传，我们跟着长长的队伍排，终于吃到了。好吃！

走着走着，让我发现了一间很吸引人的冰淇淋店，你说，我怎能错失机会？哈哈

傍晚，我们去Batu Feringghi海滩散布。在那留下短暂的痕迹，拍拍照片，吹吹海风。突然天下起倾盆大雨，无奈，只好归去。

晚餐我们去吃Upper penang road 的"Who's Bryan"。朋友介绍的西餐厅，食物好吃，环境优美。正巧遇到隔壁有一桌家人替叫Bryan的小男孩庆祝生日。下次再去槟城我一定要回去吃！

第三天的早上，我们去寻找壁画。壁画分布在不同的街上。几乎每一个小巷都有个铜铁弯成的作品。我们成功找到街上全部壁画。最后一个是在Chew Jetty那边，我们顺便可以欣赏渔村的风景。遗憾的是，有些壁画被雨水冲蚀了。在那儿和住在那的朋友Jaya见面。她带我们到极乐寺那儿吃Laksa，过后到她的家拜访。晚餐是在Pasar Pulau Tikus解决。我最爱那里了。

（转）生命大发的意义

看了一篇好文章。深深体会到老师说的“经验写出来的文章才是最感动最有启发性的”。尤其是现在的我知道，不幸得白血病的人是多么地痛苦无助。珍惜生命，珍惜现今，珍惜爱你的人。

 

生命大发的意义

2013年02月24日 19:36:16    (转自人人网 ）

 

文 几米

1993年底，我还在广告公司上班。那一年，我在工作上遇到前所未有的低潮。一个寒冷的冬夜，我迷迷煳煳的走进一家位于地下室的命相馆，我还清楚记得，那个纹着两道浓黑夸张柳叶眉毛、声音粗嗄的女相士，用几乎是命令式的口吻，叫我从眼前一个盛着米粒的小圆盒中，随意捏出几粒米来。她用艳红的指甲拨动米粒，又随手画了一些符号，然后面无表情的说：“你不要再寄人篱下了，要自己创业。1995年将会大发，独当一面，不费吹灰之力，财源滚滚，从此平步青云走上人生高峰！”

这些话让我心甘情愿的付钱，快乐的走出命相馆，觉得人生一片光明。

隔年我结束长达十二年的广告生涯，作一个全职的插画工作者，没天没夜的画图。日子简单平静而美好，但是我实在想不透，这样的工作，这样的收入，凭什么会大发。

我幻想着美好的未来，心中一直默默期待1995年快点到来。

95年才刚过完农历新年，二月下旬，我在睡梦中被左大腿的剧烈抽痛所惊醒。叁天后大腿失去知觉，一开始我仍天真的以为，只是一时不小心的撞伤或者肌肉拉伤，医生找不出疼痛的原因，治疗无效，我也不以为意。一边四处求医，一边画画。疼痛持续加烈，而我日渐衰弱。在一个初夏的午后，我几乎昏倒在求诊的街头，太太扶着苍白衰弱的我，直奔荣总急诊。

第二天，在母亲节的前夕，主治大夫面色凝重的暗示我得了急性骨髓性白血病，也就是血癌。我就像八点档连续剧中遭逢天人惨剧的主角，放肆的大哭大闹，一直哭到昏昏沉沉的睡着了。再醒来时，病床外的花篮已堆得满满的，甚至有些已经开始枯萎了。

我没有任何选择的开始接受化疗，结果就像电影里的情节一样，悲惨极了。呕吐，发烧，昏迷，疼痛……在医院住了六个月，我整个人完全变形，浮肿的大脸，光秃秃的头顶，惊恐无神的双眼，永远戴着口罩，连站都站不稳。我精疲力竭的与死神搏斗，日日流下无助的眼泪。离开医院的那天，还是个狂风暴雨的台风天，我没有惊动任何人，只想快速逃离医院，心里暗暗发誓，永远永远不要再回到这个地方！

1995年，我什么事也没有做成，躺在医院的单人房，与世界隔离，谢绝访客，流泪度日，每天有一大堆医生护士服侍，不断输入别人的血红素，血小板。日日期待自己的白血球能够争气一些。

我常常回想，生命里这一段惊心动魄的转折，到底要对我的人生作何提醒。我是那样一个冥顽不灵的笨蛋，躺在医院里，吞咽困难的时候，还满脑袋在回味美食的滋味，心里盘算着离开医院以后，要立刻去吃遍各大美食名店。生命的变化太快，太残酷，来不及准备，也无法预料。所有的美好都在当下。而所有的变化也变得美好。

我感念那一段饱受折磨的伤痛时光，让我变得感性而敏锐，许多平凡的小事变得重要，而许多非凡的大事又变得无足轻重。

回想女相士当年的铁口直断，她说我日后会独当一面，没错。疾病的伤痛是无人可以替代的。说我会不费吹灰之力，财源滚滚，没错。我只是躺在床上，保险公司就自动送来百万巨款的理赔金。说我会平步青云，步上人生高峰，没错。我像皇帝般的受到被美丽的妻子，仁慈的护士和医术高明的医生二十四小时全心全意的呵护。

我终于明白那一年生命大发的意义了。

你正在过什么样的季节？春、夏、秋、冬？心情冷暖又是由谁决定的？上帝？自己？还是路人甲？

我在寒冬里，梦见走进春天的花园……

醒来时，香气满身。

怡保生活记

不知不觉，我在怡保的五年生涯已过了半年。还记得刚开始来到怡保生活时是我的生日。从人生地不熟到成了个小地头虫，我就在这简单的小城市中穿梭。

要回想这半年内干了些什么，我说不出任何大事，就只是上课、回家、吃饭，有空时逛街看戏。在这儿，我最大的享受便是怡保的美食。开心的事物，当然要和大家分享。在这儿先向你们介绍几样：

首先是我最爱的点心！要吃点心最好找一大帮朋友们去多点些，才能吃得过瘾。通常我们都去“富山茶楼”。中秋节时，在那儿可以买到新鲜出炉的月饼。怎样？想吃吧？ :D

Foh San Dim Sum in Ipoh

Address : 51, Jalan Leong Sin Nam, 30300 Ipoh, Perak

 

我的宿舍附近的体育馆后面的美食中心有一间“辉记”的粥和面都很好吃。我尤其中意他的“石斑鱼片粉”，每一次去都离不开它。
Address: Stadium Negeri Perak Darul Ridzuan

有空时，我们一伙会去Station 18 新开张全霹雳最大间的 Aeon逛街看戏。另外，那儿有我们爱吃的 "Sakae Sushi"。虽然Station 18 离我家很远，开车要15分钟，但为了吃好吃的日本餐，再远也值得。 *(^o^)*

Dinner at Victoria Station

Thanks to my brother's good result, I get to have dinner at Victoria Station tonight. I was excited for a whole day, and finally, went to the restaurant straight after arriving at KL train station.

The atmosphere of the restaurant was as warm as usual. Tonight there were many customers. We arrived there around 10 p.m. with hungry stomachs.

I was having a hard time choosing between my favourite lamb, prawn and salmon. At last I chose a Combo of sea prawns and grilled lamb loin as you can see in the picture below. Besides, I ordered a cup of fresh honeydew milk.

As expected, my lamb loin with other servings were very tasty. Although I would prefer the prawn to be served in my hometown's style, this prawn in my combination was not bad. The others are also satisfied with their meals.

I think we'll wait for my brother's another good performance next year to celebrate at V.S.  Thanks again, bro!  XD

DIY Pencil Box & Floral Sling Bag

These DIYs were made in my last precious holiday after my second module exam.

 

The materials needed are two piece of cloth. I bought the materials from the 100Yen Japan shop, Daiso. Each piece of cloth is only RM5.00. So I think it is kind of worth it to made the pencil box that I like, and I didn't use all of the cloth! (which means i'm going to make other things later :D) 

 

Left: Pencil box, Right: Pouch
Both with same design using two pieces of cloth.
 

My brother asked me to make one pencil box for him, and he get one in full black. I hope that he won't spoil it.

Besides, I made a little sling bag for myself. Before that i didn't think of making that, but when I found the floral print in Daiso, I just couldn't resist buying it. The print has vintage style which is what I really like. (like in the Classics)

Materials: Another Floral print from Daiso and zip

A close up
 




Next time you might spot me shopping and studying with my own DIYs. ^^    Ciao~

Exam + Education

Now I'm entering a new module, FYI, my study is according to modules instead of semesters. Every module ends with an exam, which accumulate marks for the year end exam. With each module is about 6 to 7 weeks long, can you imagine how fast or often i have to sit for exam? And hence this is my source of stress.

I'd been thinking, as we grow older, we are subjected to more and more exams. The duration of study or preparation for exam shorten as we study higher level. Primary we have 6 years before UPSR, lower secondary 3 years for PMR, higher secondary 2 years for SPM. For my experience, 1 year of express classes to prepare for A levels. Now, 2 months + for end of modules exams. Not to mention my piano and violin plus theory examinations. For some moment, I thought the purpose of my life were to sit for exams.

Please understand that I'm not against exams. I believe in the purpose of exams, which is to assess our knowledge on the subjects. However I'm against the need of having to study unnecessary subjects, which waste our time and effort to attend class, prepare for it and sit for the exam. I still remember how i spend time memorising the facts for sports (Pendidikan Kesihatan dan Jasmani) definitions of values in Moral education, details in history, which i couldn't recall anything now. Now, in college, its depressing that there is still presence of invaluable subjects that we have to waste our time to attend, namely Career Guidance and Technopreneurship.

Could you imagine having to attend compulsory career guidance classes in a medical school? It seems like they thought us having difficulties in choosing the right profession. Honestly i think it should be done in the form of seminar but not wasting so much of our time. Techno class is like they are expecting us to memorise the facts of the components of business. I wish you can imagine how tough for me to prepare for the subject that i disliked so much.

I've been an object moulded by our nation's education system, but I've opinion and feedback on the system itself. I hope to have improvements on this matter, to make a student's life less miserable and more enjoyable. I hope.

~

Saw this quote in The Piano Guys' video and I like it!
They are awesome.

 DON'T ONLY PRACTISE YOUR ART,
BUT FORCE YOUR WAY INTO ITS SECRETs,
FOR IT AND KNOWLEDGE CAN
RAISE MAN TO THE DIVINE.

 

 Ludwig van Beethoven

Dumpling Craze

 

 

Whenever I'm at home, I'll make dumplings to eat because I'm so in love with dumplings and dimsum! It's quite easy to make but i use a few hours to make as i make a lot at once.

 

Dumplings! 

I would serve it by two ways:

one is to boil it;

 

 another is to fry it:

To make the skin you'll need:

• 350g of medium flour
• Some hot water  & cold water (the volume of water can be adjusted)

The dumpling ingredients:

• around 450g of minced pork
• Kuchai
• 2 eggs
• 1 big teaspoon of sesame oil
• 2 big teaspoons of soysause and cooking oil
• Some carrots & turnips

* Using these measurements you can make about 50 dumplings. Try it out!

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I know, it has been a long long time since the last post. The last two months were hectic, maybe its because i'm new in this environment and need more time to adapt to it. The first module which actually is the foundation,has finished, and i'd sat for the first exam last week. That's life--- taking exam when you have only studied for less than two months.

My life in Ipoh is quite exciting. One thing that surely cheer me up when i feel homesick is the food! No wonder people call Ipoh as the heaven of delicious food! Especially when my house located just in ipoh town and easily reachable to every direction in Ipoh. For now, i've tried quite a lot of food here (I'm still considering whether to write them down and give ratings and comments about the food.)

I miss people on KL, Subang Jaya and Kajang. Sometimes I feel sad for not able to study overseas, in "real" universities, where they write thesis and do extensive researches, like many of my friends who definitely are going to do. Some are going to US, to UK and also to Singapore. Do i have a chance? Yes, but it surely is more than 7 years later. I'm considered to be faster than many of my peers, which are only going to sit for STPM end of this year. That's the only thing i can console myself with.

My university life is not the same as i expected. I thought to have more freedom, like more time for own study, and activities which i've missed in past, but it's not. My timetable is even more packed than before, study hours even longer than any stage of education i'd experienced, which annoys me. Half of the time I have to attend for university compulsory subjects that are useless except for English subject. The long hours make everyone of us lethargy after class, what energy left to drive us to revise or study? Moreover, we still have to eat, sleep and do house chores.

And tomorrow starts the new module. Life goes on.

My first day lesson in medical college

Alright, how do i start this? Today is my first day of lesson in RCMP. The orientations were done in past three days, and there will be more orientation in Pulau Pangkor weeks later. I guess the additional orientation is to built stronger boding among the seniors and us.

Out of my expectation, the first lesson started with a patient entering the lecture theatre. We were required to ask her questions to find out the cause of her condition. She was assigned to be in the condition of Severe Dehydration and answer our questions according to the relevant signs and symptoms. Based on the questions we asked we can know how she get into this situation. Thus we had an experience of first day becoming a doctor.

After taking down all the information, we were divided into small groups to discuss furthermore on this to confirm the diagnosis. I'm fortunate to be in an active group that everyone contributes their ideas that we have to further study on. Lastly the ideas were organised into learning outcomes that we hope to find out and bring to the second discussion later on.

There was a tutor that guide us in the discussion so we can stay in the path. I'm happy that he asked questions to lead us there but not feeding us. It was a nice brainstorming session.

Although the patient is not really having the condition (fake),I feel that the whole Q &As and discussion helped us to think more critically and relate the ideas into main points.

Later on, the first lecture i attended was Anatomy. The proffesor explained so fast that we couldn't catch up taking down the notes.

The way that i'm studying now is different from my study skills earlier. In university level group study is definitely imperial, if not, you might bored to death or couldn't understand the concept well. Most importantly, they are someone to listen to your ideas.

You'll learn to be grateful after living here

Countdown of "The Most Unwanted Things I Wish It'll Never Happen" ....urgh...."again" since it already happened on me last year.

For those who often complain to me how sick to eat the same food everyday; how you wish you could live away from your family to gain freedom; how bad it is without tv, computer, movies; I can tell you how lucky it is for you to have clean food, how I wish i can stay in my home and of course I would want to have entertainment but sometimes we just can't and thats doesn't matter.

Last year have been very educating. I've learned to be grateful for everything I had before that and I'm sure if you were given the same condition as these you'll feel the same way as me.

Number 3:

The sudden presence of huge living things, including moths even larger than my hand, sickly huge spider with long legs which runs extremely fast, and cats that suddenly found lying in your bedroom.

Yes, I live in a jungle, not forest.

I don't have photos of the spider as it appeared Running to me when I was taking bath! My housemates saw it when they were in the bathroom too.

Number 2:

 You might want to open your eyes when you are eating. You wouldn't want to try on "fried flies" or any special exoskeletons. Once my housemate saw maggots underneath her chicken skin.

Number 1:

The colour of our water may not necessarily be colourless. It comes with distinct colours and sometimes  accompanied with smells. This is voted "the most unbearable" by my housemates as we have to use water  to take bath, wash clothes, cook dinner. We truly realised the importance of water!

Every colour below comes in seperate days.

Brown-black---

The most extreme, happened when water came after water ration,
bringing rust that sediments the tank. Surely can not be used.

Smell of metal.

Our bathroom we wash every week, but when dirty water came,
it stained our cleaned floor.

Yellow ---

Pale Green ---

With strong smell of chlorine ?!

The End




Although the unwanted things happened, life can be modified to become better by bringing in things we like. Thanks to my lovely lavender and daisy who accompanied me through this year!

Sketching

Short holiday after trial, i occupied myself with some sketching, being a beginner. The theme i gave myself was "the most beautiful actresses in large screen" of my choice, portraying my favourite characters, of course.

From upper left, Liv Tyler starring Arwen Evenstar in the lord of the rings; Upper right is Emma Watson!!! starring Hermione Granger in Harry Porter; Lower left, Anne Hathaway starring in Brides War; and Lower right, Keira Knightley starring Elizabeth Bennet in Pride and Prejudice, and my another favourite movie, Pirates of the Caribbean!

i-clay Cartoons

Hello! 

Yesterday i found a small box in my room keeping all my i-clay cartoon creations. About four five years ago, i was once obssessed in making i-clay models.

i-clay that i used (from net)

~~~~~~~~~~~~My little i-clay gallery~~~~~~~~~~~

These are the cartoons i made following steps in the instruction booklet

Then later on, i like to make some cartoons i really like, one of them is Pocoyo!

No doubt influenced by my little brother. 

*Smiling*

Pocoyo
(not as cute as the original one, shall make a new one one day!)

The duck friend, Pato

Pocoyo, Pato, Elly!

 Of course, i made my favourite Disney cartoon characters!!!

Donald and Daisy

Mickey, Minnie and the D couple!

Just making for fun: 

A Piglet, 'oink, oink!'

Little santa ^^

 How i miss those times~ <3

Bonjour !

Good day people! Sorry for the dead blog. I have been burning the candle at both ends in last few weeks, doing last minute study for MUET, preparing presentation slides, finishing maths homework. 

Yep, life is hectic, but still, there is something I can do to release the tension. Yesterday, I went the Chinese Book Fair in Viva Home exhibition hall, Jalan Loke Yew, KL. One of the books i bought is self learning Francais, written by a Taiwanese author. I've always want to learn French. Now i do have the book, Yeah! Only I wish to have some time! 

Also, i found a very nice paper and craft shop in the mall, ground floor. The shop was like the heaven to me. The temptation was so strong and i bought many nice patterned papers. It was so heartbreaking to spend money on them! 

~ from photobucket

Reading books (except for text books) is my way of relaxing. What about you? 

Have a nice day!

DIY Angpau Lantern

Chinese New Year is coming! I couldn't resist the urge to make some decorations for my house. Following instructions from book, I've made two lanterns using angpaus and self-made paper flowers.

This lantern is very big. I used 30 angpaus to make this, and folded about 20 paper flowers to put in the gaps. I'm going to hang this in the centre of the living room. It's quite easy to make, but time consuming. Most of the time i'm making the flowers.

This one is quite similar to the previous. Only 5 angpaus needed to make a small lantern. 

Close up

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! May good luck always with you!